When you thought you are on the right path, ignoring all the negativity, making your way with your chin up, wearing a positive and bulletproof vest, there will be always some people who would love sabotage your journey.
Sabotage, what a negative connotation. Well, it is true. They shake your belief, they tug your senses, they stomp on your feelings, they stab your sanity. And after all of that, they leave you hanging, swaying and injured. They wanted you to be responsible for the damages that they had done. You are left all alone to mend yourself.
But frankly, you know deep down inside. At the lowest, deepest deep inside your mind—and belief, faith, you are able to go through that all because of ALlah is there, always and at all times. You refused to seek help and succumb, admitting that you are the weakest among the weakest soldiers. You forgot, that ALlah wanted you to come to Him will all you have got. Your vulnerability, your insecurities, your fears and fragility.
Sounds very cliché, too mainstream, and traditional. But you know, that is right, right?
“O’ you who have believed, seek help through patience and prayer. Indeed, ALlah is with the patient.” (2:153)
When you start to stop setting your bar of happiness, satisfaction, your felicity even, the contentedness of being yourself at your own pace and peace within your timeline, the relief will come. The rewards will be greater. After all, only you who know the real you.
اللهم صل على محمد, may the Nūr Muhammad revive my heart and insights.
Assalamualaikum and good night.