22 Mar 2020

"Without chasing the things we lost, without turning back for the things that already passed us."



We lived in another dimension but still under the same starry sky.

Unfathomable feelings wrapped around me. Oddly, I just went through it. Occasionally, I would wander around, getting some fresh air but this time—I wasn’t. 

The pavement looked bigger than before. No, it looked bigger than the usual pavement I had ever seen. Before I climbed up the pavement that was swirling up on the left, I sat on the chair, beside someone who I didn’t even know. 

I started to dial any random number. I hoped that it would reach him, so I could talk to him. I didn’t even know whether that particular number existed or not. But I dialled it anyway.

A damn familiar voice answered.
My heart wavered. Tears overflowed. My chest felt tighten. It was him.

“How are you?” I asked, with a shaking voice. I was beyond ecstasy. Tears hindered me from saying it, so it sounded incoherent. 

It was silent for a moment. Anxiousness started to engulf me. I missed him. I really did. I missed him so much that I could die.

“Hmm…” he replied, softly. I could just imagine that he was nodding at that time.

“Did you know that I miss you so much?” I gasped for air, clearing my throat but tears won’t stop.

No answer. But I could hear his breath. It was adequate for me. Even his voice is sufficed for me. I made my way to the pavement. I climbed up with phone still on my left ear, hoping for any questions, any answers.

“Abah, you know that I miss you so much that I could die?” I asked. Again.

There was no answer either. But I assumed his heavy breath as a yes. Yes, he did know. Yes, he missed me too. So damn much, I just…knew it.